I have been experiencing a lot of firsts lately, as well as a lot of lasts. Because the later is a bit scary and sad, I am focusing on the new and exciting.
This is the first time in my life where I do not have an assignment looming in the future. As of now, I will never have another paper to write, another test to take, another timed essay to dedicate my time to. I am full-fledged in the workforce.
This is the first time where I am making huge future plans without something else going on. When I applied to graduate school, I was still in undergrad. When I applied to college, I was still in high school. As I am applying for jobs, I have my part-time job and that is it!
This is the first time I am actively applying for jobs outside the librarianship profession.
This is the first time that I am spending substantial time alone. I spend most days writing and blogging as well as job hunting. The times I see others are at work or when I am running errands. I, however, am loving the time for introspection.
This is the first time that I am letting myself free from what everyone else thinks. So what if I don’t have a full time job. So what if my dreams have shifted. I am happy. Beyond happy. For the first time, I know, no matter what, I am going to be okay.