I have been experiencing a lot of firsts lately, as well as a lot of lasts.  Because the later is a bit scary and sad, I am focusing on the new and exciting.

This is the first time in my life where I do not have an assignment looming in the future.  As of now, I will never have another paper to write, another test to take, another timed essay to dedicate my time to.  I am full-fledged in the workforce.

This is the first time where I am making huge future plans without something else going on. When I applied to graduate school, I was still in undergrad.  When I applied to college, I was still in high school.  As I am applying for jobs, I have my part-time job and that is it!

This is the first time I am actively applying for jobs outside the librarianship profession.

This is the first time that I am spending substantial time alone.  I spend most days writing and blogging as well as job hunting.  The times I see others are at work or when I am running errands.  I, however, am loving the time for introspection.

This is the first time that I am letting myself free from what everyone else thinks.  So what if I don’t have a full time job.  So what if my dreams have shifted.  I am happy.  Beyond happy.  For the first time, I know, no matter what, I am going to be okay.